My best friend has been gone for almost two weeks. I’m counting the days when I get back from Florida and
I can finally lay my eyes and arms on the person I share everything
good with; from laugh attacks to soda straws, we know each inside and
out. I see her everyday, at least once. I visit
her at the gas station while I’m supposed to be at work, I seek her
out in the library when she has study hall, and I wake up on weekend
mornings to see her curled in the fetal position across the couch from
me. She even spends the night on school nights
occasionally. We’re glued at
the hips from Friday when I get off work, until Sunday night.
Now that I’ve made it clear that we spend a lot of
time together, I’ll delve into the shock I’ve experienced throughout
the past two weeks she’s been gone. Well,
I cry myself to sleep every night and I can’t eat and I tear up when
I play our song every morning. Actually,
I’m just kidding. In the time she has been away, I’ve forgotten
about how it bothers me that she makes foul faces unconsciously almost
all the time or that she says, “What are we going to do tonight?” when
she clearly means, “Find us a party!” Honestly, I wish I could look
over and see her frowning at someone she dislikes. I
miss her a lot but I firmly believe that when I get to see her next
month I’ll love her more than I did the day she left.
Even chatting on the phone together has proved my
point. I chatted with her for
the first time last night and I was spurting with things to tell her
about what I did this weekend and who I was with. She
seemed just as interested to know about it as I was to tell it. She asked questions longingly like, “O Jessie
hung out too?” and said things like, “I miss so-and-so!” even though
most of the time we were complaining about him because he teases us
when we sit in my room. One
time he knocked rudely on the door, swung it open and leaned in, spouting
the words, “Your friends needed cosmetic surgery.” Surely,
if absences didn’t make the heart grow fonder, she wouldn’t express
yearning to see someone that is frequently aggravating her. In
addition to this, it took almost a minute to say goodbye to each other. We had to go through a series of “I should
probably go to bed…,” “I miss you,” and “Will you call me?” statements
before I put the phone down.
Human absence is not the only absence missed. People lust for all kinds of things when they
have not been around them. For
example, I can remember how homesick I was when I went to visit another
friend for a week in California. She is one of the sweetest people I know, she
was extremely hospitable, introduced me to her friendly companions,
and scheduled activities for us to do that would be the most fun. We went to Universal Studios, the gelato shop,
to Venice Beach,
and went shopping at various places. I
love engaging in those sorts of activities, but I spent much of the
week consciously thinking of the days and nights before I would get
home.
The whole environment in California was
different. I wanted to walk
out of the door and see the dry grass turn to a deep green, I wanted
to see green street signs with white lettering, I wanted to see the
southwest style homes morph into colonials. I
definitely enjoyed my stay but before that vacation was over, I was
ready to return home.
When home finally arrived, I experienced a sense of
euphoria by just sitting on my bed and absorbing my surroundings. My dog felt softer and her eyes appeared more
endearing, it was exciting to go into the kitchen and know where everything
was, even the familiar stale smell of cigarette smoke caught my fancy. I had a refreshed attitude about life in Falls
Church, my family, my friends, and my environment. It lacked the dull repetition it possessed
before I left for my trip and I was happier because of it.